Cold blooded

Because the world is a cold place.

Frankly I showed up for the win. That's right, you might as well put the "W" in my column. I won't quit until it's there.

I know where your allegiance lies, right beside that number 1 you've got pinned to your chest. You've got an assortment of names for someone like me. I've only got one name for you; liar.

So many people want to act caring and kind as if they were good for the world when the truth is no matter what we're all in it for ourselves.

FTW. For the win, that's what I signed up for. Not to buy your bullshit, laugh at your jokes or give you a slap on the back. No, I walked in to accept you for who you are and to verbalize that I can see you're an actual asshole. Now I know you think I must be mistaken but have no doubt I'm a terribly good judge of character that's accustom to being right. Invariably you should conclude that I'm not to be fucked with. I understand you think you're quick and all but just because I'm nodding and smiling doesn't mean I'm buying.

Just bringing a little darkness to your sunshiny world,
Reno

Kick ass

That's right - I've waiting two years to write a "This year is kicking ass blog." Well I'm writing it today.

Up to this point 09 is kicking ass. I'm selling a bunch of shit. My roommates are cool as hell. I'm content with living here for now. Life can't get much better.

I was going to write more but my ADD is kicking my butt so this is all you get.

Lata,
Josh

Baby girl

I don't own a boat but I can float your boat.

I didn't show up for the heart break. No that wasn't my intent at all. Simply I'd rather see you happy without me. Guess that's because I'm fine with out you, or anyone looking for a companion.

See, I've got tons of friends. Tons. I make new ones all the time. I love to work. Love it. After that I enjoy being alone. All alone. So you see, just as I told you, that makes me a terrible boyfriend. Don't act like this wasn't something I brought up in the very beginning. Once your heart stops hurting you'll be able to hear that. Other girls already have, other girls have yet to. But enough about you.

I realized the why. An epiphany at it's finest. In order for me to be content I need to find someone that I can communicate with wholly and unencumbered by the typical relationship constraints of judgment and offense.

You dating someone that's become your best friend? Good, I think that's going to last. At least that's a form of love that I hope does. Because if not then I've lost faith in love all together. The freedom, understanding and level of comfort I hope those things entail is what I've decided upon to be true and worthy of pursuit.

Up to that point it's all another form of entertainment. Filling the gap between when you wake up and go to sleep. The gap that exists between when you're born and when you die. That's truly all any of us are doing - staying entertained. How lame is that?

Reno

Looking back

Do you ever look back on some of the stuff you did and think "Man I was an idiot."

Whenever I do that I laugh because I of how cool I am now.

Reno

On my mind

Don't display your maiden name as your middle name on Face Book if you've recently gotten married.

I need to get I tunes up and running on my computer again.

I need to write about women expecting to have the seat put down.

Customers are idiots. Though with out them I'd be a broke sucka.

Don't write dramatic shit in your status updates. Keep that shit where it belongs - in my blogs.

I will not

Ever confuse myself for being a "thug".
I might say or do some crazy shit but I never did any growing up in the hood.

Be calm about my "H" or "T" button not working on my keyboard.
I might break my laptop if it doesn't start cooperating.

Have an ugly girlfriend and say or think she is attractive.
I'm not going to lie to myself or try to convince you of my lies.

Hide my love for profoundly open and understanding old people (70+)
I don't mean this in a sexual way, sick bastard.

Tell you your girlfriend is cute, smart, funny, or anything of the like.
I will tell you the opposite if it's true though.

Lie to you but I will tell you what I think you want to hear.
I don't know which is worse.

Get over my trust issues any time soon though I do believe in love.
Unfair but true.

Ever fear saying sorry or admitting I'm wrong.
Because of everything I'm not, I am enough of a man to do those two things.

Give up the idea that taking action is easier than asking permission.
It's also more efficient.

Claim to be artistic or begin to think I fully exploit my potential.
Pretty sure it's because I'm too lazy.

Say I appreciate all that I should.
Because I don't

Reno

HYDROCO/APAP 5/500

Is it bad that two out of the three sales guys here are high as a kite right now? One of which is me. Some times, just some times, it's fun to work here. At least I've got a prescription and a reason to be taking these pills.

Reno